words

cannot describe how much I strongly dislike you at the moment.
Seriously. Have I done something to offend you? If so, please tell me.

Urgh I hate feeling like this, like the world or what-not is against me.
Its like you are pushing me away from something, I'd like to know what the hell you're pushing me away from...

on the plus side, its easter hols soon. TFFT!!! I could do with time off. I soooo hope my mate holds a party during it like he promised me today (YN)

im off now, as im pissed off
bye
xxxx

sorry

I never showed up again last night. I was way too busy.
But I shall write it now.

Yesterday was a great day, specially at work. Called Rachel 'Hello Face' for the whole of our shift. Was so funny because everyone else was just looking at us both going 'wtf are they both on!?' Ah good times. It shall continue today I shall hope. Also the random changing room 'guess your age' game was hilarious!
Sahira; OMG roheena, you don't look like your gonna be 20
Roheena; yeah I am.
Sahira; Well im nearly 27
Roheena and me; No waaaay!
Sahira; Yes way.
Roheena; You dont look it. Least when you are 50 you wont look it. LOL
Me; HAHA that would be awesome. Go to people...yeah I am 32 not 50 pfft hahahaha
-all 3 of us die laughing-
Roheena; thats like saying Sam is 27
-Sam approaches-
Sam; -insulted- cuse me I am not 27
-dies more-

aaaah! Very good times. Please continue today. Its making my sadness disappear loads

That went well

LOL!

I will be back tonight to edit this blog

how sad..

...am i?
Just found out I am the only single girl in my class, great! -insert sarcasm here-
It isn't fair, I don't want to be single....-sigh-

Ah I really need to sort my sad pathetic life out

I done it

Yesterday, I said that I had trouble getting to college due to lacking in money. Well I did it...I got myself to college by walking there (took forever) and my mum picked me up. Woo. It also meant I was able to go into college and hand in my project which was due in today. YAY ME :) Am so happy.

In a lazy mood so im gonna go
bye
xxx

Crying

I want to.
1. I got a important project due in tomorrow
2. People are annoying me like hell.

First issue is more important though. Its due in tomorrow but I now have travel issues due to lacking of money. My stupid work have decided to pay us all on tueday 31st! And there is me, who likes spending money, with no money till then. So frustrated. I have one more thing to add to my video and then its done but now I cant do that as I have no way of getting myself to college. I want to cry. Cry cry cry!
I'm also in pain because of today. Went on a uni trip and I picked up so many books that carrying them has made me get a backache. It hurts a lot. *cries again*

Also, some people feel the need that they want to get a little kick for themselves by trying to wind other people up. RAWR because it is me they are winding up. I dont like it.

Im gonna go now before I burst
bye
xxx

Urgh

I use that as a title way too much, but its how I feel atm
gonna be a short blog tonight as I am not in the mood at all.

Some people can GTFO of my life atm, yes you know who you are. RAWR

(L)

I loved today! :)
So glad I went to Key Skills today, haha.

Day started off well. Good breakfast, good day at college and a good journey home. Good day overall.
Key Skills this afternoon though was a right old laugh. Specially the conversation between Blake and Martin! Ah I love them both. They are both like Marmite to me. 'You either love them or hate them'. Martin was pretending to be gay and flirt with Blake; who wasn't having any of it, so Charlie joined in by stroking Blake's arm. At this point, Blake was getting freaked out. From the sidelines, you had me, Brittany and Sarah laughing like mad animals at the three of them. Gurbuz (teacher) then saw all this and told them to calm down and get back to work so Martin used his 'gay' charm on the teacher. More lols! Then he said it was break time so we went on break and then 30 mins later break ended and he said we could go home. RESULT!
Ahhhh I want today back, it was fun.

Hopefully this will continue again tomorrow so I can laugh again. Luckily I also finish at 12.30 tomorrow. Yay :) Early finish.

Im gonna go now. Mum's just got in and I want to see her new haircut.
Bye
xxxx

Happy Mother's Day

Love you Mum x x x

Well yesterday was a very bad day for me. Argument with mum, argument with dad, people were avoiding me in town yesterday :@ and I felt like a piece of goo. It was horrible. Felt like the world was against me yesterday, I remember coming home from work and sitting in my room just crying for hours about it. The worst thing was; one of my really good friends wasn't online to cheer me up like they usually do.
Hopefully today will be a good day for me. I need a good day, haven't had one for a few days now.

So yes, to the rest of the UK and whoever else celebrates it; happy mothers day to you as well :)
my brother and I got our mum some flowers and expensive chocolates. They were very expensive!!!! Am now skint, lets just say that. Also made my mum a coffee :) yum coffee

Well i'm gonna head off now, I will post another blog later to tell you if I had a good day or not.
Bye
xxxxx

Update

So yeah, I haven't been updating as much as I have been recently...I apologise for that. Please forgive me? :( I have been a very busy person.
So yesterday I went from college to get the train with some friends and we travelled down to our local beachy town (or shall I say city) called Brighton and it was wonderful. Visited for record shops, went to the city centre, had mcdonalds, went on the beach, threw pebbles into the sea and took a walk to my nans flat which ended up with "she's gone out with Ernie". Overall, yesterday was a fun day. The weather was nice and sunny and I had a good day. It then got to the evening and a few of the friends I went with then ventured back to the station to make their way back home whilst some of us stayed in Brighton to go see Pete Doherty play Brighton Dome. He put on an amazing show, if I must say so, it was incredible. Some of the support acts were lame but he made it worthwhile. WOO PETE!
Left the venue at 10ish to go catch train home and lets say, it was a LOOOOOONG train ride home, specially when you cannot see which stations the train stops at. This involved me sticking my face right up close to the dirty dusty window to view the sign of which station we were at.
Im gonna shut up about it now. :) but yes, it was good. I want it to happen again please.

Today, well today, is friday. Nothing much happened today. Woke up, felt realllllyyyyy tired, watched last nights skins, had a shower, got dressed, and then went to college. Lets say this, I did ALL of this by 10am! Amazing isn't it? An achievement in my mind. Bare in mind, I went to bed at midnight as well :D
So yes, I got to college and I did my work etc and got bored and then fell asleep in front of the computer, got whacked by my friends Sarah and Blake who kept telling me to wake up which was a little funny. Then college ended at 3pm but I stayed around till 5 to wait and chat to friends. Went home, had dinner and now here I am writing it all down in this blog post. Aha.
OMG I really am so bored.
I usually write long blogs if no one talks to me on msn, which is kind of happening atm as nobody cool is online at all! Seriously! And the people who are online; well they aren't even communicating to me. I feel insulted. Just a little bit.

Well I am gonna head off now. Its getting a little late and I'm still tired from last night and I have work tomorrow
Byeeee
xxxx

sun sun sun

4th day of lovely sunshine now...LOVE IT :)
goodbye cold weather and hello warm weather >< eee I love it.
But this also means Hayfever will be making its return to me again for the season :( boo

happy today as we got sky+ installed downstairs >< and I got my myspace t shirt through the post today YAAAAAAAAAAAY, Good day all round.

Tomorrow will be better, day off college tomorrow. WOO! I can sleep in all day. Super yay.

ah im running out of things to say
bye
x

Blank mind

So today, I thought I would post my fave music video so far this year up for you all to see. Its by Elliot Minor and its called 'Discover (why the love hurts)' and I love it for many reasons;
1. Its by my favourite band
2. I love the song
3. The video was filmed in my favourite country; JAPAN!!!



enjoy xxxx

Hi blog 65

I couldn't think of a title so thought I would name it that as this is my 65th post. Woop :)
Sorry about not blogging last night, I was very busy. Which is unlike me at all.
Went to work at 10am, left work at 2pm, walked to friends house, arrived there at 2.30pm, hung out with them till 5.30pm, walked to mcdonalds and brought a chocolate milkshake and a double cheeseburger and then went to catch the train home, caught the train, got off the train at my stop, walked the 25 minute walk home from station and finally made it home.
Ah what an eventful day I had yesterday lol. Oh yeah, then I ordered pizza. Yum.

Today is going to be boring though. Got work at 2, finish at 6. BOO!!!
Hope it will be fun at work today though, I will try and make it fun. Otherwise I dunno what to do :S

im off now
bye

Sayings

Was reading something in a magazine which I had purchased recently and I came across the saying ''all the good handsome guys are either taken or gay" which I found to believe because they are. Damn! But it also sprang to me that this can also be untrue as there are some good handsome guys out there who are single but like the really pretty girls who some of us girls could never be or like. Lately I have felt like this, I dunno why, but I just have. 1 guy is taken and the other is single but I know the single guy doesn't like me either as he shows no interest towards me at all which really irritates me like mad.
But I also read in magazines that some like to play 'hard to get' one of my friends said he could be doing that. I highly doubt that! If he was, then I wish he didn't as I hate it. If a guy likes me, I'd like to be told, not to try and find it out myself.

Im gonna head off. Off to the cinema with my mum. Who I think is the only person (alongside my dad and other family) who loves me.
bye
xxxx

Idiotic

Really. It is.
Basically, there is a situation at college between 3 people. Its got way too out of hand now. What's happened is a guy and his girlfriend broke up recently and he was crushed about it as he thought she was the girl of his dreams and then a few weeks later he finds out she's now going out with his best mate. See where this is going? No?
Well, he gets very angry and threatens to kill the guy etc and gets all their mates onto his side so now the other guy has no friends except the girl and me.
I feel so sorry for him. TBH, in my opinion, I think the loser is the girl's ex for being a total prick about it. He isn't going out with her no more so he needs to get over it. It would have been bad if it was happening WHILST they were dating but it didn't. Urgh it makes me so angry. Specially because all these 3 people are MY friends.
The bit that upsets me loads is he is now at the cinema ALONE as no one is his friend. Myself and his gf couldn't go as the film hes seeing is an 18 and neither of us are 18 yet.
I just want to give him a hug and say....im your friend,

fail

what a failed day, and I thought Friday 13th was meant to be a bad day.
Today has been a failure of a day, in my eyes.
My friends never waited for me while I went to collect my new glasses, the queue in the opticians was horrendous which delayed me even more and to top it all off, no pizza companies will do free delivery for what Pizza I want. FAIL FAIL FAIL! =[ and I really want a pizza. Now I am bored.

But on the bright side, I received my 2nd university booklet thing :) for my 1st choice uni >< happy happy happy! Plus I baked cakes :) because I got bored. Haha.

Hope tomorrow is a better day, otherwise I am going to be very very bored. I must remind myself to check what time I am working this weekend during my lunch break tomorrow, otherwise I might get into trouble for not showing up, don't want that to happen.

Meh none of my friends are online -cries-

im off now, to find something for me to do.
bye
xxxx

good times

Amazing-ish day :)
Went to Folkstone in Kent with my parents and brother today. 1 hour and 30 min drive there from my house. So boring lol. But when we arrived it was ace. Had McDonalds for lunch and then walked alongside the sea. Very relaxing.
Then Dad showed us where he used to live as a child and told us stories about how he, his older brothers, older sister and younger sister would all run down this big hill towards the sea and how my granddad worked in the army baracks across the road. It was very intriguing. I liked it.
Then went into the supermarket in the town to get food for home and my mum started laughing like mad about the music being played. "OMG Morrissey is playing. Its a song from his new album. SPAZZ SPAZZ SPAZZ!" She goes. So embarrassing.

Tomorrow is going to be another beach packed day for me, off to Brighton with my friends. WOOP!

im gonna go now
bye
xxxx

beautiful day

it really has. Lovely weather mainly :) I like the sun. Aha that sounded random.
But yes, overall I have had the best day ever, I think in my own opinion.
Woke up in a good mood, went to college in a good mood, stayed in college with a good mood, left college in a good mood, went home in a good mood and then went out for dinner and came home in a good mood. Ah I love it :) So beats being depressed.

Lets just hope tomorrow is another good day. I am trying to get the weekend off but I dunno if that is going to happen. It is because my parents are planning a day out and I have to attend it but unfortuantly I have work at the same time so I somehow have to find a way out of it. Same applies to sunday, but instead of parents, it is friends. Hmmmm. Decisions.
What to do, whatttttt toooo dooooooo. I hate having to make my own decisions about this. Gaaaah I dislike work sometimes haha.

this is probably the latest I have ever written on my blog. Like I said, its a guess. But oh well.

Im gonna go now as I am tired. Bye
xxx

Friends

Today really opened my eyes about friends. Some just don't want to be around you. How fucking nice is that?
Was walking down the road with some friends of mine and one said to me "why do you hang with us? You must think we're a bunch of effing weirdos!" So I turned to him and said "I dunno, but you aren't all weird at times. Just some times." Another said "Yeah, why do you hang with us?" Them saying this made me think twice. Should I really be hanging with them? Are they trying to tell me to get lost, is it because I am the only girl of this friendship group so far? It makes me wonder.
Maybe I should stop hanging with them for a while and see how they like that. It might do me some good because I am a bit behind at college because I usually skip lessons to hang with them. It isn't good.
But what I found out of order was ''Do you have any other friends?" If that was meant to be a hint of telling me to go away then they can stfu because I don't see them hanging with other people every other day. They know I have other friends. Bunch of motherfuckers.

I need to stop swearing. So I am going now
Byeee
oxoxo

good day

Ah what an amazing day I had today ><
she didn't bother me at all. WOOP DE DOO lol

Little upset though as a good friend of mine is leaving tomorrow. He is quitting college so mine and my friends emotions are all sky high at this minute. Really dont want him to go

we'll miss you harry xx

:)

Okay so I am happy again now, although I didn't get a good nights sleep last night but oh well.
I know my mood will change in about 2/3 hours time when I am at college though. RAWR! I like being happy =[ I don't want to be sad. Its just when I see 'her' face it makes me so angry. I just wish that I could do something and she'd disappear into thin air so I never have to see her ugly face again. I know that sounds a little mean but she's making me become a depressive state. All because of this one guy. Argh! Okay I am going to stop chatting about that now as I like my happy mood atm.

So today is Monday, it is 10.34am and its march 2nd. That means that from 2 months today; it will be my birthday. Eeeeeeeeee.
OMG if the skank ruins my birthday I will tear her fucking insides out! I know that sounds a little harsh but none of you know this ''idiot'' I'm not even going to mention her name because I just cannot be bothered.

Yanno what, I am just going to leave now before I say anything more mean.

Oh yeah...I might not blog on saturday as I am off to London, eeeeeeeeeeee ><>< SKANK WON'T BE THERE! woop

Should I?

Or shouldn't I?
That is the question on my mind atm on 2, maybe 3, things. Gah I have no idea what to do about any of the things on my mind.
Listening to a friend saying how college is making him depressed is kind of showing me that it is affecting me as well. Since I've started college this year, I haven't cried so much ever. Usually I would just go ''FFS'' but no, not this time, this time it's always tears. Why? Well, I am giving myself till the end of this 1st year of the course and then I will decide from there what I would like to do. If I decide to leave I could always turn my part time job into a full time thing. So I would have something to fall into.

Hmmm. The other thing I really don't want to talk about anymore because I think I am boring you all about it. It's just I really like someone but I'm afraid that he doesn't like me because all he ever talks about is this other girl, well he doesn't exactly talk about her but he always hangs with her and it kind of upsets me as it's like he is trying to avoid me and it just makes me want to cry about it. I could write about this person all day if I could but I won't bore you all.
I just don't know what to do. I dunno if he likes this other girl or what? I'm so confused. This is one of the many reasons why I want to leave college. -cries-

Im gonna go now and chat to one of my good friends Harry, he knows what I should do.
Bye blogging people
xxxx