Should I?

Or shouldn't I?
That is the question on my mind atm on 2, maybe 3, things. Gah I have no idea what to do about any of the things on my mind.
Listening to a friend saying how college is making him depressed is kind of showing me that it is affecting me as well. Since I've started college this year, I haven't cried so much ever. Usually I would just go ''FFS'' but no, not this time, this time it's always tears. Why? Well, I am giving myself till the end of this 1st year of the course and then I will decide from there what I would like to do. If I decide to leave I could always turn my part time job into a full time thing. So I would have something to fall into.

Hmmm. The other thing I really don't want to talk about anymore because I think I am boring you all about it. It's just I really like someone but I'm afraid that he doesn't like me because all he ever talks about is this other girl, well he doesn't exactly talk about her but he always hangs with her and it kind of upsets me as it's like he is trying to avoid me and it just makes me want to cry about it. I could write about this person all day if I could but I won't bore you all.
I just don't know what to do. I dunno if he likes this other girl or what? I'm so confused. This is one of the many reasons why I want to leave college. -cries-

Im gonna go now and chat to one of my good friends Harry, he knows what I should do.
Bye blogging people
xxxx